In August 2023, I booked a flight 48-hours in advance to go to Montreal, Canada from Kansas City, Kansas to win back a man whom I’d broken up with the month prior.
Thanks for sharing! A lot of it is genetic from what I’ve heard. Our brains are legitimately different and have trouble recognizing a problem (and spatial awareness etc). And having certain personality traits makes you more predisposed to EDs.
I honestly didn’t realize until this year that I struggle with impulse control. It’s hard because you want to give yourself a break, like oh, this is just adhd, but you also don’t want to avoid accountability and excuse it.
Love the words of the wise old therapist! Reframing things... and this.... yes....
"Perhaps those of us with eating disorders, or other addictions, are simply more acutely aware of how true that is. How far the pendulum of self can swing. And how inexplicable it feels to want to do good by others, to be a reliable person for those you love, but be struggling with impulse control, and self-defeating habits which can then fan out and affect those closest to you."
Are you in my head?? lol I don’t know that I can relate to everything but it’s a pretty big majority! I find myself asking some of these exact same questions.. And I don’t have the answers yet (and maybe I never will), but I think it’s important to ASK of myself. My old therapist used to throw around the words of “Being curious”. That maybe finding the answer isn’t the point or what I need yet and that it’s OK to “be curious about it”, throw it around, air it out in the open. It opens a door (or window) to further insight and reflection.
So thankful for your writing. It helps to not feel so alone.
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LOVE WHEN YOU WRITE ABOUT EATING DISORDERS. PLEASE MORE OF THIS.
Haha, getting back into itttttt
Thanks for sharing! A lot of it is genetic from what I’ve heard. Our brains are legitimately different and have trouble recognizing a problem (and spatial awareness etc). And having certain personality traits makes you more predisposed to EDs.
I honestly didn’t realize until this year that I struggle with impulse control. It’s hard because you want to give yourself a break, like oh, this is just adhd, but you also don’t want to avoid accountability and excuse it.
Love the words of the wise old therapist! Reframing things... and this.... yes....
"Perhaps those of us with eating disorders, or other addictions, are simply more acutely aware of how true that is. How far the pendulum of self can swing. And how inexplicable it feels to want to do good by others, to be a reliable person for those you love, but be struggling with impulse control, and self-defeating habits which can then fan out and affect those closest to you."
YAS 🙌🏻🩷
Are you in my head?? lol I don’t know that I can relate to everything but it’s a pretty big majority! I find myself asking some of these exact same questions.. And I don’t have the answers yet (and maybe I never will), but I think it’s important to ASK of myself. My old therapist used to throw around the words of “Being curious”. That maybe finding the answer isn’t the point or what I need yet and that it’s OK to “be curious about it”, throw it around, air it out in the open. It opens a door (or window) to further insight and reflection.